A Home for T

Well....I won't write a lot because I don't know what to write....and I'm not really sure how I feel.  We were not chosen for T today.....my initial comment to Hydee was "ok, cool, when do we keep looking?"  Then I hung up the phone, Chris was asleep with a headache, so I curled up in the corner of the bathroom and just cried.  And cried and cried and cried.  It's hard when you REALLY feel like this is IT, this is the ONE......only to find out it's not.  Is it my fault?  Is it's Chris' fault?  Is it something we said?  Is it something we DIDN'T say?  It's none of it...we've prayed and prayed and prayed that GOD'S will be done, that God bring us the child or children that HE wants us to have.  And I'll be lying if I was ticked off that for ONCE what we want and what HE wants lines up the first go-round....we still know that plan is there.  We'll see it a little more clearly once our swollen eyes go away I think :-).

But pray with us tonight, that T feel SO blessed when he gets the news in the next few days that a family has been chosen for him.  Pray that his family never take one moment with him for granted, that they feel the prayers that are coming towards them and surrounding their family...their NEW family.  We pray protection over them from the enemy that they be spared his attacks as their new family unit forms.  And gosh dangit, that God finish getting my babies ready so they can come HOME already!!!!

Please enjoy, yet another pearl of wisdom and humor from Tracey, who seems to have the best things to say at the BEST times!!!

All our love and thanks for prayers!!!  Keep them coming, you're now on this journey w/ us :-)

***J***